Everytime We Touch

Life has been grand, lately. I've been really conscious of other people, their feelings, and I've been very intentional in my relationships with them. Sometimes I almost feel like I give too much, like I love too hard. But I've been re-learning to keep Christ first. If you always keep Him the focus of your attention, everyone else will receive just enough lighting. Trust Him always; everyone else will only let you down.

I am very excited about this coming weekend/week. My old boss, Kim, asked me about 3 weeks ago or so if I would go with Youth for Christ (where I worked last summer) to jr. high camp if I didn't have a job. And since I am currently an unemployed bum, I am returning to jr. high camp. It's going to be so amazing. I miss my ministry with the kids so much; and most of all I miss my combined ministry with my best friend, Beth. We worked SO well together last year. Wow, what a summer we had. So I'm excited to spend a week picking up where I left off. I cannot wait to love on the kids and offer myself to them wholeheartedly. And I must admit, I am pretty psyched for the water parks & King's Island again. :-)

Anyone have any recent lessons learned they want to share? I love learning.....

this week

Here are just a few fun memories from this week (I could write a whole heck of a lot, but I will spare you readers from involuntarily reading a novel):

-seeing my nursing girls
-TGIFriday's with Kimmy, Lori, and Caitlin
-holding hands with Cait at The Strangers... haha. My hand is still numb.
-surprising Ande at midnight (she was shaking; then again we did wake her from her slumber)
-having my brother not recognize me not once, but twice, in one week
-HUGS!
-passing NCLEX (and finding that out while surrounded by my friends/nursing girls)
-such sweet laughter
-Ande and I piercing each other's ears.... some of us piercing better than others ;-)
-Tea Time (oh my goodness, that did my heart so good)
-Justin Torrence. End of story. (and his tid bit about lion sex)

to God be the glory

I could hardly sleep Tuesday night, I was so anxious about seeing my grade on the NCLEX. I had driven down to Bourbonnais to surprise Ande for her birthday with Caitlin. So I stayed up talking with Cait about it until almost 2 am. I still couldn't sleep, so I wrote Christina a letter while everyone else was sleeping, trying to manage my time to spend as much of it with the girls as possible. I finally fell asleep at 3, or shortly after. I was up at 7:30 when I heard Jami & Ande getting ready for their Christian Faith class. I tried to make myself fall back asleep, as I had 4 different dreams (that I can remember, there may have been more) that I failed my exam. So I was more nervous to check.... but Caitlin had gotten up and ran to the living room to see if I had checked yet. I said no, so she brought me my laptop so I could log on and see if they were posted. They hadn't been posted. So I laid back down on the couch with my laptop by my side. Cait crawled on the other couch to go back to sleep. I leaned over and thought, "Ok, I will hit the refresh button ONE time, and if they're not up yet, I'm going to sleep." As I clicked, the "your results are not ready at this time" disappeared, and "Quick Results Ready" appeared. I slowly sat up, so as to not disturb Caitlin, and grabbed my credit card. I entered the information and clicked next.... as my heart was racing, this informational page that I cared nothing about popped up. So I clicked again...... and my heart stopped.

Autumn Tagert
Grade: Pass

I stared at it for a good 30 seconds before I was able to mutter, "Cait? I passed!" She JUMPED off the couch, and ran to my side to see for herself. "Call EVERYONE!" So I began calling people that had been praying so faithfully for me....

God is faithful, to the very end. To Him be all praise, honor, and glory.

Autumn Tagert, B.S.N., RN :-D

my brain = jello jigglers, anyone?

I don't remember ever feeling this drained before....

spiritually, physically, emotionally, mentally....

my brain literally feels like it's a plate of jello, swishing from side to side at any sudden movement.

I dread the question: "So, how did you do?"

I took my NCLEX exam today. Four years of nursing school under my belt. You'd think it would be a piece of cake; merely a sprint to the finish line. Give it all you've got, and it'll be good enough, right? I'm not so sure, after today. Everyone in my class has passed so far. And they all 'thought they failed'. I wouldn't say that I think I failed. I am just uneasy about not having any indication of how it went, whatsoever. As crazy as it sounds, the test was the easy part. Yes, it was 3.5 hours, and it was filled with my leg bouncing up and down, and me squirming in my chair after I passed the first 170 questions. Brain throbbing as I approached 265. But I think when the pointer is spinning, while the green status bar is growing, and while the page is loading is when I'm really going to feel it. I'm terrified for the results page to load. It should NOT be an indication of my intelligence, but how can it not feel that way? I worked so hard for this. Blood, sweat, and tears (many of those, might I add. Many, MANY of those).

It's the waiting game, which just so happens to be my least favorite game in the world.

new blog for a new beginning

First xanga. Then livejournal. Then myspace. I haven't really blogged in a while. As I mature, those fade into the distance. I don't want to be so public (ironic, I say that as I post my life online for all to see). So I figure I'll give this a shot. I'm going to be raw; because lets face it, emotions compose about 80% of our actions. Hopefully the other 20% of our actions are made up of conscious effort.

So here it is..... this is me.....